adventures in dysthymia

Sunday, September 20, 2009

TWO SCARS

I am not conscious of the scars,
most of the time. I do not see
them readily, am not reminded;
both are toward the back of the skull,
one a little higher than
the other, hidden by my hair.

I still have my hair, thank God.

The one is from a gun. No, not
a bullet, a gun. The higher-up,
older mark that would be,
and came not from true malice
but a small automatic thrown
in anger as I walked away.

It didn't go off, thank God again.

I know that's not very exciting.
There is no tale of a fight
nor holdup, just some mild amusement
in visualizing a pissed (and drunken)
woman chucking her pearl-handed
purse gun at my back. I suppose

she could have shot me. Thank God once more.

I did bleed some. As I did
when I got whacked with a steel bar.
That would be the second scar
and, yes, that was malice, not anger,
intended to lay me out. It didn't.
The bar only glanced across the back
of my skull and laid open the scalp.

For which I also am thankful to God.

Anyway, those marks remain,
reminders of who I was and still
am, perhaps. Not a fighter,
not a tough guy, just someone
who's been some places and done some things
and just might again, some day.

And for that, I thank God.

Stephen Brooke ©2009

Though laid out in lines of rough tetrameter, this could just as readily have been formatted as a prose poem. Or prose, period. Very first draft-y, of course, as is most anything I post here, and more of an idea than a finished piece.

2 comments:

Bettina Makley, aka Fairywebmother. said...

*snapping fingers in Bohemian applause*

Acoustic Eagle said...

ah, yes, scars. Everyone's got one or two, and some have more. And they all have stories to tell. I have one on my right wrist from childhood, when some boy threw a piece of shale at at me. It cut right through the skin and left a wide scar. The boy was very sorry about it. It was a small group of boys throwing this shale at a the small group of girls I was with. I think it was more about 'flirting' with girls, rather than malice.

The thing is about scars is that, at the time, they hurt when the wound first appears. Later on, they stay to become part of you, a small history written on the skin.