adventures in dysthymia

Thursday, February 04, 2010

a few philosophical meanderings:

If the existence of God is the only thing that gives existence meaning, what then gives meaning to the existence of God? Ultimately, existence must be justified by existence ; the purpose of being is to be.

Now, whether that is enough is the unanswerable question. Being and non-being, the infinite and nothingness -- those are our choices. On or off. To be or not not to be.

There, indeed, is the rub for, if we exist as part of the infinite, 'off' becomes unobtainable. That we do exist can not be changed. We are; that is that. Our fear (or desire?) should not be nonexistence -- complete death -- but the nonacceptance of our being, our not-becoming.

So we may accept or reject our existence yet we will exist, regardless. Should we not then embrace existence wholly? I mean not this, our everyday life, though that should be lived in its entirety as well (as much as possible, of course). I speak of accepting our eternal existence, accepting the fact that we always were and always will be, outside of time, outside of this universe, as part of the totality of being.

Which may and properly should be called God. The 'Word' (logos, which can mean 'idea' as much as word) that was with God is not only Jesus but all of being.

I know that fighting against existence, embracing nihilism and rebellion, can be an attractive proposition. We didn't ask to exist, after all, did we? There is a part of us that yearns to embrace nothingness and the final peace it offers. An empty offer, offered by emptiness.

We can always end this life, this phase of our being. What, though, is the point? One might as well wait for it to end on its own and live it in the mean time. The pain, the joy -- they mean nothing and they mean everything. They are who we are, insignificant specks in the infinite yet every bit as important as each other insignificant speck.

I make no pretense of knowledge as to what comes next. I know only, believe only, that existence is, was, will be, that we are a part of the eternal God, one of the infinite persons in which 'he' manifests.*

What better choice is there but to recognize the infinite within us rather than deny it? What better choice but to become our true selves, who we are and more than we are?

Stephen Brooke ©2010

*God, of course, encompasses all things (and more!) and is therefore he, she and it.

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