adventures in dysthymia

Sunday, November 23, 2014

To Take Arms, a poem

To Take Arms

So, is it wrong to take
ones destiny into ones hands,
to make that leap into
the darkness on ones own terms?

I, too, might take arms
against tomorrow, against
insistent fate. Someday,
I may feel the need.

There come days when I
believe, and days I do
not. Which will this be?
Tomorrow speaks too loudly,

and if, in the end,
things have only what meaning
we give, what meaning have we?
Take arms, brother, take arms.

The last day of my life
I may regret all done
and undone. The next day,
I shall not care. Let fall

things as they will; in time,
everything and everyone
is forgotten. Let fall the darkness.
I shall know when to take arms.

Stephen Brooke ©2014

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Odds, a poem

Odds

I have seen the doors of destiny
open before me, seen the calm, cold stars
wink to life in the void. Hear their voices,

lifting songs that hold no key. Once I
learned such tunes, misunderstanding each
promise. Like that famous cat which is

alive and dead at once, these futures both
exist and don’t. Did I choose? Ask
the angels and the stars. Ask those beguiled

by the lurid signs along their roads.
Signs and wonders, portents of my fate,
point ever away from here. I’ve heard the whispers

of the hard-faced women on this street.
All the night, they whisper to each other,
laying odds. Which regret will I

ask to wear when they have done their weaving?
Tonight I count the stars. Their number must
add up to something, something I might believe.

Stephen Brooke ©2014

Being all poet-y and obscure

Monday, November 17, 2014

Concentrate, a poem

Concentrate

The smell of burnt oranges fills heaven,
rising with the caracara
from the prairie swamp. It is
a long, flat two-lane way from the coast

to Lake Okeechobee, broken only
by Immokalee, sleeping still
when I drove through. But the plants
run all night, up by the lake,

turning the golden fruit to juice,
concentrating Florida
for consumption. Pillar of smoke,
pillar of fire, lead me on,

though I know not why I was chosen,
no more than the high-humped Brahma cattle
that watch me pass, the red-wing singing
in the ditch. As time passes, unobserved,

all that is me is concentrated
here, on a road that leads
to dawn. Why question what may lie
beyond this smell of oranges?

Stephen Brooke ©2014

a route I frequently drove, once upon a time, across the empty country between Naples and the lake

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Socks, a poem

Socks

I won’t have sex in socks,
no matter how cold it may be;
I need my feet as naked
as the rest of me.
My toes might feel quite frigid,
yet they yearn to be free;
we shouldn’t have sex in socks,
I hope that you agree.

No, I won’t have sex in socks,
more blankets are the key;
pile them thick on the bed —
I think we need at least three.
Then, content in our cocoon,
snuggling cozily,
all my little piggies
will go ‘Whee! Whee! Whee!’

Stephen Brooke ©2014

just  nonsense

Monday, November 10, 2014

What Now?

Now that the ‘Donzalo’s Destiny’ saga is finished, it is time to tackle new writing projects (not to mention non-writing ones). Perhaps I’ll finally finish some illustrations for one of the children’s books.

I have started in on a new novel, which may or not lead to obsessive writing. Very different from the fantasy books I just completed, both in content and in style. I went with a method of short scenes and varied viewpoints in the Donzalo books whereas I intend to be quite mainstream in the new one, with a straight-forward first-person narrative.

The story should be pretty much mainstream as well. Not exactly a thriller nor a mystery but veering in that direction — have to keep the readers’ interest somehow as I sneak in those oh-so-important observations on the human condition and that kind of stuff. :) I am not working from outline and notes this time, either. Well, I do have notes, of course, but I’m still doing more of a make-it-up-as-I-go thing. That means my first draft will tend to be more, well, like a first draft.

Anyway, I just finished a good draft of the second chapter with a dead body, so I’ll have to see where that leads! One thing I do always have in my notes is a list of phrases and exchanges that I want to incorporate into the narrative at some point. I really do work from words to plot more than the other way around. I also have a completed later chapter which I originally wrote as a short story quite some time back (under the title ‘Surf’). That was sort of impetus for this intended novel.

It is also time to get into my previously published books, do revisions and edits, and get new editions up, including mobi (Kindle) format ebooks for Amazon. The children’s books are probably OK as are, but I definitely need to get back into the novels and poetry. THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE would be a good place to start, followed by the Donzalo books. Once the latter are revised, I intend to put out all four in a single volume. Print only, including, maybe, a hardcover edition. If one wishes ebook versions, they will have to be purchased separately.

Having mentioned the MIDDLE Young Adult novel, I will say that I might yet tackle a sequel to that book. But my interest is elsewhere for now, and the book has not sold well anyway. I look on it as my ‘practice’ novel, the one where I learned a great deal of craft. Not that I don’t consider it a reasonably successful attempt. Eventually, a sequel (sequels, more likely) to DONZALO should also appear. There is quite a lot to explore yet in that world and group of characters (and their descendants). Not to mention, the varied political and philosophical bits I threw in — though I’m not sure I can top the nihilistic, depressed sorcerer I used as the primary antagonist in the novels!

And, having now mentioned nihilism and depression, I return to the novel-in-progress, tentatively titled SHAPER. Depression, world-weariness, suicide, are going to be major concerns here. Yeah, it sounds dark and maybe unappealing. But it’s also going to be about surfing and love and sunshiny beaches.

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On a completely unrelated note, my niece and acclaimed Americana artist Mean Mary James will be performing a couple shows here in the Florida Panhandle in the next few days, Thursday night at Topsail Hill State Park and Sunday afternoon (3 PM) at Roberts Hall in Lynn Haven. If you have a chance, get out and see her.

Saturday, November 08, 2014

Hill-Farm Sketches, a poem

Hill-Farm Sketches

1.
July was heat and thunder
with an ice-cold creek
flowing through the middle.

2.
Each pine on sandstone hills
knew the soft caress
of a summer moon.

3.
The oft repeated name
of the whip-poor-will
filled the shadowed hollows.

4.
The dogs ate boiled potatoes
when our pockets were empty
but the garden was full.

5.
I could never climb
high enough in the maple
to see all I desired.

6.
The voice of the night
still whispers among the hills
but I can not hear the words.

Stephen Brooke ©2014

Memories  of a place I lived as a  kid. I could see adding more were I to get ambitious someday.

Fashion, a poem

Fashion

It was with care I put
my happiness away, there
on the top shelf. Maybe

someday I can get it down,
unfold it, smooth the wrinkles
and see it still fits.

It used to be all the fashion.

Stephen Brooke ©2014

another little throwaway thought

Friday, November 07, 2014

Video Trailer for The Hand of the Sorcerer

I put together a simple slide-show video trailer for the release of THE HAND OF THE SORCERER, officially out on December First. My music, too, an older piece I adapted for this.


I am waiting for my final proof print copy to arrive and then I'll go ahead and put up purchase links at the Arachis Press site (the book is actually already available at our Lulu shop and should show up shortly at Apple, B&N, Amazon, etc), even if the official release isn't here.

Tuesday, November 04, 2014

Pine Cones, a poem

Pine Cones

All night, I lobbed pine cones at the moon,
hoping to dislodge it from the sky.

You held a jar ready so you might carry it home,
place it by the bed to light our lovemaking.

We should have been there rather than staring upward
at the slow transit of the heavens.

Stephen Brooke ©2014

in a sorta sijo-like form

Sunday, November 02, 2014

Come and Go, a poem

Come and Go

I have learned not to miss you, lately.
Each day, each hour, I fill
my life with little things.
There is the garden. One might

lose himself there, among the rows,
tending to ones mindless chores
beneath the slow clockwork of the heavens.
Never mind that you loved the flowers

and the sunlit days we shared.
Such will come and go, come and go
as you did, and who might stop them?
There is rain tonight. It also

comes and goes, and that is expected.
Tomorrow, I know I shall still yearn
but not so much. I have learned
not to, lately; learned not to miss you.

Stephen Brooke ©2014

I think this sort of romantic drivel come too easily to me...

Saturday, November 01, 2014

The Hand Is At Hand

I have a good, more-or-less print-ready manuscript of the fourth and final book of ‘Donzalo’s Destiny’ finished. This last installment, ‘The Hand of the Sorcerer,’ ran some 15,000 words longer than its predecessors — still not a particularly long book.

But all four books together actually form one novel of just over 200,000 words. And that is with my relatively spare writing style. Were I one to add lots of descriptive detail, it might well have run quite a bit longer.

At this point, the projected official release date is the First of December, which means it should be available a couple days before for ‘Cyber Saturday.’ Anyway, one will definitely be able to purchase a copy before Christmas (from Arachis Press).

Naturally, I shall continue to rewrite and polish the text right up to the last minute, but the main job now is design and formatting. That is partially done — I’ve been making up dummy covers for some time! I also hope to get a video book trailer ready, the same sort of simple slide show I did for the previous three DD books. I have already composed a couple possible sound tracks for use.

Perhaps I shall post here a little more frequently now. I have been very much obsessed with getting ‘Hand’ finished to the detriment of any other creative work. I’ve barely touched a musical instrument in months, nor picked up a paint brush.

Not to mention all those waves left unridden down at the beach.